September 2016 Goals

August was a good month of writing and working for me. I also possibly made a big break through on a problem that often eats up my writing hours: migraine headaches. I am trying the most common prescription medication again (Imitrex) after years of using alternative solutions that all either failed (various diets, herbs, remedies) or made matters much worse (acupuncture). At any rate, so far I’ve fully aborted two out of three headaches with Imitrex, which feels pretty miraculous after twenty years of impenetrable cyclical migraines. What this means is that I may have 2-4 more days of good solid writing per month to complete these goals.

Last month’s goals were:

  1. Work on ToB&L Book 4 revision. CHECK, but still slowly plodding through the plot– or plotting through the plod, as the case may be.
  2. Finish posting the matwork series to my Pilates Blog (2.5 exercises left!) CHECK
  3. Keep working on the various formatting and editing projects for other authors. CHECK–I made good progress and finished two projects.

This month’s goals will be:

  1. Work on ToB&L Book 4 revision. 
  2. Finish ToB&L Book 6 revision: The final four books of ToB&L are intricately connected, and so, as I’m revising book 4, I’ve been reading Books 6 & 7 to make sure events and logistics match up. I started revising Book 6 last month to fix continuity issues, and I realized I needed to take the story timeline further and add a few chapters at the end. I plan to finish this book’s ending this month.
  3. Begin ToB&L Book 5 revision: This book is getting a full rewrite similar to Book 4. I switched up the timelines and narrators in these two books and so they needed a complete reorganization. I’ve been having so many ideas about Book 5, and I’m very excited to share the narrators’ stories someday. Readers of the series have met these two narrators before in earlier stories, and one of them is the character most-asked about, and a personal favorite of mine.

 

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August 2016 Goals

July was a whirlwind of activities, so thank goodness my three July goals were simple:

  1. Work on ToB&L Book 4 revision. CHECK
  2. Post at least 4 new exercises to my Pilates Blog. CHECK, I posted 4
  3. Keep working on various formatting and editing projects I’m working on for other writers. CHECK

August looks like it will be more of the same. I’m involved in several longer term projects that can’t be completed in one month so here are my goal for August:

  1. Work on ToB&L Book 4 revision. 
  2. Finish posting the matwork series to my Pilates Blog (2.5 exercises left!)
  3. Keep working on the various formatting and editing projects for other authors.

Maybe next month I’ll get a little variety in there!

Note: I’m running a giveaway for paperback copies of The Velocipede Races over on Goodreads. You can enter here for four more days: https://www.goodreads.com/giveaway/show/194802

 

 

July 2016 Goals

I was a little late this month on goals because I was on vacation with my husband in Kansas City, for a family reunion.

Last month I made three low-key goals to:

  1. Work on ToB&L Book 4 revision. CHECK
  2. Post at least 4 new exercises to my Pilates Blog. CHECK
  3. Do publicity for STERLING. Her pub date is JUNE 27th–I have a blog and a giveaway planned, and I may be doing a few interviews on others’ blogs, too. CHECK

I liked having a fewer goals and more freedom, so this month I’m only doing a few goals, too. Here they are:

  1. Work on ToB&L Book 4 revision.
  2. Post at least 4 new exercises to my Pilates Blog.
  3. Keep working on various formatting and editing projects I’m working on for other writers.

 

January 2016 Goals

In December my goals were:

  1. Finalize The Cedna. Done! It is out and you can get it here!
  2. Promote The Cedna. Well, I did as much as I could stand, but as ever, book promotion is a hated but ongoing task for me.
  3. Sterling revision. Done and sent out to 2.5 editors/readers.
  4. New writing. I read two half-done manuscripts, picked one to resume, and have started daily work on it.

And my goals for January will be:

  1. New Writing: I’m going to devote the next month’s writing days to the manuscript I picked last month. Right now I just call it “Glitter” but that will not be its final name.
  2. LCP flash fiction contest: Luminous Creatures is running a month-long flash fiction contest over on our website. See the prompts here.
  3. Revise Tales of Blood & Light Book Four: It’s a big, sprawling mess.
  4. The Gantean and The Cedna boxed set: I’m making an ebook boxed set for the first two Tales of Blood and Light books, which are really like a “duet” within a series. Still working out some cover snafus.
  5. Flashdogs : TIME: I’m expecting to received the next Flashdogs manuscript any day now. Once I do, I’ll format it for ebook and print! Its planned release date is the Chinese New Year, Feb. 8th.

What I Learned While Writing The Gantean

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As you all know, my book, The Gantean, is now available on Amazon. To celebrate its two-month anniversary, I’m posting this essay I wrote to myself a while back while I was trying to figure out why I was still working on The Gantean after so many years of struggling with it.

I started writing an epic fantasy novel when I was twelve. I recall that I did it just after reading Mary Stewart’s The Wicked Day, which was a paperback lying around the bookshelves at home. Like most fantasy books of that era, it involved what we call a “hero’s path” story, albeit a dark one. As a twelve-year-old girl, I don’t think I had ever read a fantasy story with a true female lead—there were plenty of girl sidekicks and girls as part of ensembles, but never a lone lead, never a story with a solitary girl’s point of view guiding the tale—I hadn’t yet found The Mists of Avalon. I’d gone through years of Lord of the Rings read-alouds with my mom and brother, captivated, of course, by the adventures of hobbits and elves, but always wondering, What about the girls?

So I set out to write the fantasy book I wanted to read. I knew nothing about feminism then, nothing about theories or politics—I just knew I wanted a story I liked, featuring a girl. And not a fairy tale princess kind of girl, though I was no stranger to fairy tales, having been fed a steady diet of story ballets and Disney movies throughout my childhood.

I slogged over the story in The Gantean for more than half my life, trying to make it work. I rewrote it many, many times. Now, I’ve “finished” it–to the extent that any story is ever finished, and I’m still wondering why I had such dogged persistence on this particular story. For something that gave me so much difficulty, I should rightly have abandoned it years ago.

My beta readers also slogged determinedly through the story, somewhat to my amazement. I had been a little skeptical that they would make it through. Most of the women liked the story, unconventional as it was. Most of the men got through it (“it’s well-written”) but didn’t really like my main character.

One smart reader said, after he finished, “I don’t understand the main character. What does she want? What are her GOALS? Her big goals, not her immediate ones?”

At which point I chastised myself, Emily, you dunce, how could you have written a character-driven story with a main character who has no goals!

After a minor meltdown, I buckled down and said, OK, what are the MC’s goals? She must have some; I just have to figure out what they are.

I know what the typical fantasy hero’s motivating goals are: finding one’s true self, overcoming an evil, saving the world or a friend, or these days, achieving vengeance or gaining power.

At first I thought the only goal that would possibly work for my MC, Leila, was finding one’s true self. But as I considered that goal, rebellion rose in my gut. I’ve always disliked that trope, because identity is a fluid thing, and too often books, especially fantasy books, seem to imply that if you just knew who your parents were and what you stood for, you’d have yourself figured out. No. I reject the idea that parentage, social roles, and our moral or political alignment entirely define us. As Leila, my heroine, says in The Gantean: I want to be more.

So I didn’t like finding one’s true self as a goal. And I had already written Leila very deliberately, associating her with the element of water, so that she flowed rather than strove, and she let her circumstances shape her more than she tried to shape her circumstances. She represented a traditionally feminine character—a character who did not seek power, someone whose strength derived from her ability to adapt and accommodate rather than her ability to control and dominate. I didn’t want to change that—it spoke to something deep about why I had written this book in the first place, some lonely call from my twelve-year-old heart: it’s ok to not know who you are; it’s ok to be passive, to observe, to avoid conflict. These powers are connected to the mythic feminine, and they are under-represented in fantasy, or, when shown, they’re vilified by readers who fail to understand that our conventional hero’s path is paved only with traditionally masculine ideals.

I went back to the standard fantasy character motivations. I considered them again, and then again. These were the goals of the hero’s quest. And even when applied to a heroine, as it has become much more common in fantasy, it seems our heroines are still stuck on that same path paved with traditionally masculine ideals and expectations. I’m thinking of Katniss, Katsa, Arya, and even Sansa, who has suffered so much being toted passively through Westeros by everyone more powerful than she. Now she’s being groomed for a vengeance plot line– or so it seems to me. And look at Cersei, who dared to behave like a man and was tortured for it in a manner so often traditionally used to shame women: denigrating and violating her body to rob her of her power, much to the satisfaction of readers everywhere. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve avidly consumed these stories, even when at times I wanted to look away. But their stories are still framed in the grand old tropes of fantasy.

My main character is not walking the hero’s path. She doesn’t care about vengeance, good versus evil, or finding her true self—though she’s aware of the conflicting sides of her personality that want different things at the same time. She wants to be safe; she wants to be quiet; she wants security, love, and peace. Her ultimate goal is to raise her children and give them a good life. She wants to be good. In short—all the nurturing goals of the mythic feminine.

We have always been told that a great story revolves around a great conflict. I can still see my college short story professor brushing his hair from his prominent brow and saying, “Conflict! Conflict, people, it’s the only fuel stories run on!” Conflict is especially valued in fantasy, where the old battle between good and evil is such a prevalent theme. But conflict itself—the getting into it, the resolution thereof, is largely the domain of the mythic masculine.

There’s a line in my troublesome book where one woman says to another: “War and politics seem like petty games of men when there are children to raise.” And that, I see now, is really what I’ve been trying to figure out in this book: is it possible to write an engaging story that doesn’t glorify conflict? Is it possible to write a fantasy story that doesn’t follow the hero’s path, but instead a path much less direct and defined—a shadow path, if you will, into the mystic feminine?

The Mists of Avalon! I can hear you crying out right now.

No. Not The Mists of Avalon. We had female leads there, we had oodles of weird mystic feminine rituals, but essentially, what we had was women scrambling desperately for power in an increasingly patriarchal world. And that’s not what I’m talking about, because scrambling desperately for power is still a goal defined by the mythic masculine. I’m talking about a mode of storytelling that prizes different themes and outcomes. The themes: the difficulties of choice, the turmoil inside one person caused by the external demands placed upon her, and trying to balance those demands with her inner life (the quintessential “conflict” in a modern woman’s life, if you ask me).

The Gantean’s main character, fluid, quiet Leila, came out of me from my shadow side, to show me that we don’t always have to be heroes. Leila came from a twelve-year-old girl’s desire to read something different—a girl I had to return to as I worked, remembering what it was like to grow up surrounded by stories of heroes and their conflict-driven goals, all the while feeling alienated because these stories didn’t acknowledge what I was feeling as I barreled towards womanhood. My concerns, then as now, were not the concerns of a hero, just those of a regular woman.

And a regular woman, to me, has always been as interesting as a hero.

New Pilates Blog

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I’m finally getting it together to make a separate Pilates blog. As of today, this WordPress site will be all about my writing, and my Pilates information (which was always very sparse) will head over to a brand new blog on tumblr, Emily’s Pilates: http://pilatesejs.tumblr.com/

Go ahead and check it out of you are interested in learning more about my Pilates life. I’ll be posting 1-2 new home exercises a week, plus other thoughts about physicality. In the photo above you see my long time client and fellow Pilates instructor/superhero, Christine, and me doing an exercise called “The Fencer.” We practice in case we suddenly find ourselves immersed in the world of Tales of Blood & Magic…

July Goals

Somehow another month flew by, and June was exceptionally busy in my world. Here were my goals:

1) Publish The Gantean. Whew! Yes! I did it! The Gantean is out in the wild, swimming through the great seas of Amazon. You can get it here.

2) Line edit for Tamara Shoemaker’s Mark of Four. Yes, I started this and got in deep. I should be finished by July 4th.

3) FLASHDOGS! Super-check! I formatted four books, total. Two ebooks, SOLSTICE: DARK and SOLSTICE: LIGHT, and the two print versions as well. The two volume set was released on June 21st.

4) NEW WRITING. Given all the publication excitement, I didn’t expect to get as far on this one as I did. Still plugging away at Tales of Blood & Light Book 7. The good news is that I got my “plot download” and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel– at least until I try to mesh this storyline into the tangled mess of books 4-6.

5) Send THE CEDNA to beta readers. Um, yeah, so…hasn’t it been hot lately? I did not do this one. I’ve come up with many excuses, but I won’t bore you with them here. I’ll have to roll this one over to next month. Bad Emily.

JULY GOALS

1) NEW WRITING: I’m really looking forward to buckling down on ToB&L 7, getting it to about 80,000 words, and then starting to unwind the final knot of books 4-7. If I have time, I’d love to get out of Lethemia occasionally and into a draft I’ve tentatively called The Fifth Sister. There’s also a story lurking in my head for my seven-year-old twin nieces who have just joined Goodreads.

2) THE CEDNA: I want to do a minor revision now that I have Beth’s feedback in hand, and then, for real, it’s going out to beta readers.

3) PROMOTE THE GANTEAN Self-explanatory, though the thought makes me feel…oogey.

4) FINISH LINE EDIT on Tamara Shoemaker’s Mark of Four: Easy peasy, it’s almost done right now.

5) Begin much needed REVISION on ToB&L Book 3. I even have a plan.

6) CONTEST Luminous Creatures Press is hosting a summer flash fiction contest. I’m judging round 1 (starts July 2nd, tomorrow!) Join in the flash fiction summer fun!